i feel restless lately. maybe its becos i am sick.
but maybe i am bored? or perhaps it juz the rainy season? Something dun really feel very rite...
there are lots i wanted to say. lots that i meant to say, but after typing a paragraph out, i decided to delete the whole chunk. i was afraid it might not turn out the way i wanted it too... why do i feel that life is meaningless? wat am i searching for in life? and wat are my goals in life? i dunno. .. sometimes i feel like juz packing up my bags and go.. but where?
shot me
i wanna go dancing but i am weak
i wanna go singing but i am short of breath
i wanna bowl but my aim is off...
i wanna go sleep but my mind is active
i wanna hug someone but no one is here
i wanna lie down in the dark (will do so when i turn off all the lights)
i wanna dream about niceties...not bloodshed
i wanna smile when i sleep but i think i drooled instead
i wanna wander but i am stuck in one place
i wanna forget but i can't
I had been remembering someone lately.. and i totally shouldn't. Things and people from my past should not appear in my mind. I know why i started to remember again.. and whenever i do, i feel sad. . . and as i remembered, i hurt inside... sometimes, i wander, if i will know if the person standing next to me is also hurting... looks does not show all feelings... what if the person sitting next to u on the train or bus is also bleeding inside, but u can't see it?
i onced melted when a guy told me i have got sad eyes...its a short story.. he is a flirt ..and he could be juz lying about my eyes...
anyway, this is just garbage. trash it, will ya? i think i am becoming stale
7 comments:
well u r not alone with the hurt and whatsoever... I believe it's not just me with you but many other people... distract yourself, dun think about it... control our mind, dun let it run wild and hurt our heart...
I dun agree with the guy tat u have sad eyes.
For me, I find life meaningful when I see the less fortunate and helping them.
Just sharing... dun think so much alright...
Well, you have a house in Belgium and a friend who would take care of you.
Let's chat soon.
*big hugs* It will get better. Cheer up!
I can see that you are loved by many.
I could relate to much of what you have written....hope it is just the rainy season...
If you want to wander about on foot, let me know. I think I would love your company as I wander from places to places (in Singapore, since my job pays me fine but not fantastic.)
I send you a sad song that starts sad but ends in an optimistic way, so that it reminds you that you aren't alone, and it reminds you things are likely to get better at the end of the day.
aiyah the guy must have picked that one out of his long list of pick up lines!
or was that me youre referring to? im still thinking if ive ever told you such crap before but no right?
im not a casanova what.
all i ever talk about with regards to your anatomy is your sexy ass.
you have many who care for you here, and most of them have met you in person. so you've made many friends who would accompany you through life.
pinkie: yea, sometimes human can be so self-indulgent at time.. we always tend to think we are the only one hurt... anyway, thanks..
kracker: thanks.. can i have the house all to myself.. :p
christine: thanks.. dun get oo near, u might be the flu bug
SA: the Sad Eyes line is probably a pickup line which i totally fell for.. wat a sucker i am .. i love my daddy too!
oceanskies: send me the song one day.. thanks! :)
loobz: not u la.. waliao...
misti: yea.. so i better be careful how and wat i write.. cos i am not anonymous anymore!! :p
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