poetry?

Part 2: continued from below...

i was thinking of something to write on the way back home.. btw, my colleague mentioned that my mood seemed to have picked up a bit.. must have been that ice cream cone i was devouring for my break at work. mood or no mood, i do have a lot of thoughts recently... last nite, i dreamt of an idiot i dated for 3 months... that idiot likes to write emails with content that no one can understand and perhaps he think it was cool. i always thot maybe he was special, that he writes like poetry, but my dear friend, wj, the muffin maker juz state it plainly that people who can't write to save their life, should juz stop it.. let me dig out something he send me. Please note that although i dump his sorry skinny ass 2 yrs ago.. he writes me ONCE a year.. each time, i have no clue wat the fuck he is going about and neither do i reply.. let him think my email account has been defunked or something..

ok , this is an excerpt of the email he send this year ..

"April Blues was already here as it was not even snowing in
Shanghai when i revisit there one more time...only fading memories
with bleaking walls trying to break from its tardiness...

Who have ever thought that the promises we make to try to keep so
hard would fallen soft like the bleaking wall...promise are meant
to be broken???
"

ahem, any clues?? anyone care to translate for me.. i dun think altavista babelfish will work for this one..

but the one before for 2004 xmas i like.. that is only for me.. the one above is a mass email cos he is broadcasting something abt his birthday. here goes the 2nd half of the poetry.. please note, he juz send a poetry.. nothing else , not even Hi Kelly, how's things?

"
i used to make a wish for a happy christmas...
like a merry new year...
but i don't...
as that wish isn't as happy as the world right now...

but whatever used to be for now...is not gonna pre-determine what
will happened next...tomorrow or the future...

the world as i see it is still bleaking beautiful as i see it...
not for now...not for tomorrow...and not to forget...
that this christmas is not for now without you...
i hope i will open up myself to you...
if only for now just for one day...

so this is christmas...& what have you done???

HAPPY CHRISTMAS & A MERRY NEW YEAR...
2-0-0-FIVE
"


i was a sucker for men who are act different. and i like men who writes poetry for me!! probably i am blind? or i was looking for someone unique... its a blessing that those past relationships did not last cos
1) i cannot be with someone who does NOT eat at all..believe me, he DOES not eat..
2) i cannot be with someone who walks for miles and miles and miles without stopping
3) i cannot be with someone who does not call me for > 2 days.. the excuse was left the handphone battery in office... or he got distracted...
4) i cannot be with someone who simply i cannot communicate with...


it juz shows that the some of the decisions i made in the past are not good decisions at all.. it takes time to discover that oops.. dang, i am with idiot, or dang, i am with asshole (who proposed and then backed out 6 months later) ..or dang.. i was with fuckard (who is getting married in 2 weeks time).. Whatever it is, all these men has given me something to remember them by.. there are some point in time back then, that i must be happy..and i shall try to remember the idiots, assholes and fuckard that way.. at least i am happier knowing that i am happier without them.